How often I wonder,
Is there another me ?
I crush my head and ponder,
I'm in chains,could I be free ?
I'm the saint and the sinner,
The librarian,the stripper.
I am half filled;that's half empty,
I pursue holiness ,end up filthy.
For a day I'm strong,then I'm week,
I'm the bold one and I'm the meek.
I'm like a mutant powered to kill himself,
I need salvation,save me God from myself.
I can't see the hook,its pulling me near,
I dread my tomorrow,honestly I fear.
I know its porn;I know its a sin,
I struggle,get beat up,why can't I win ?
These girls are nude,I should know its gross.
My half naked Lord hanging on the cross.
I am fine, alright, I can take another drink,
Can't I see the trap and know that I will sink.
What point of the trap,do I loose my mind?
Is there a button in life to just rewind.
I know this is sin and I know the price,
I need a way out ,help me Lord Christ.
Oh! How often I wonder,
Is there another me ?
Rape,murder,adultery are sins,but lie is not
It starts here at deception,the very first knot.
Where do I draw the line,how do I know ?
How can I beat this guilt,how can I say no?
Jesus,heal my past and give me tomorrow,
Give me hope and peace,I'll trade my sorrow.
am I the only one going through these things,
Is only my angel,the one with broken wings ?
On this lonely night,starring at a star-less sky,
I wonder,am I alone or Is there another me ?
July,20,2011.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Monday, February 28, 2011
Love is in the air...
Hi...
How did February treat you? did you get lucky with cupid ?since we are still on February,i don't think its harm to talk about valentine's day.why a belated blog ? the truth is i was busy.So there are many views on valentine's day.Some claim that it's a waste of time others say its one beautiful day where full of unforgettable moments.This post is my personal view on val's day.You may not agree to it.Well, that's totally cool.
Why feb 14 ?
A catholic lived before 1969 would definitely know that its the feast of st.Valentine,then it was taken out of the catholic calender.When we need to get into its roots nothing is certain about the valentine's day.a lot of ink has been already spilled on this issue,but anyways I'll go ahead, for the first timers it may be informative.
The 101 is "The Golden Legend" or "Legenda aurea" as they call in latin,its a collection of records about the saints.In a nut shell,St Valentine was persecuted for being a Christian by Roman Emperor Claudius II . Claudius asked to get him to convert to Roman paganism in order to save his life. Valentine refused and tried to convert Claudius to Christianity instead. Because of this, he was executed. Before his execution, he is reported to have performed a miracle by healing the blind daughter of his jailer.
I quote from wiki "Since Legenda Aurea still provided no connections whatsoever with sentimental love, appropriate lore has been embroidered in modern times to portray Valentine as a priest who refused an unattested law attributed to Roman Emperor Claudius II, allegedly ordering that young men remain single. The Emperor supposedly did this to grow his army, believing that married men did not make for good soldiers. The priest Valentine, however, secretly performed marriage ceremonies for young men. When Claudius found out about this, he had Valentine arrested and thrown in jail.
There is an additional modern embellishment to The Golden Legend, provided by American Greetings to History.com, and widely repeated despite having no historical basis whatsoever. On the evening before Valentine was to be executed, he would have written the first "valentine" card himself, addressed to a young girl variously identified as his beloved, as the jailer's daughter whom he had befriended and healed, or both. It was a note that read 'From your Valentine.' "
So its just a folk-lore and there's no proof of having a romantic love lining to this story.a friend of mine said since he helped the young men to get married with their loved ones, it has got sentimental love values.when i heard this story first i thought St.valentine was taking revenge on the emperor by doing this,then we should change the sense and start taking revenge on our exes on this day.Somewhere around the 1400's this romantic flavor is added to this day, the french and the English were major contributors for this.No wonder eh ?
What's my stand ?
Either it's truth or a tale,there's a day set aside to show the love and care.I definitely agree.I read my friends saying that this day is commercialized and true lovers don't need a special day,i don't agree.In fact if you are a true lover you definitely need a special day, show her.Don't calculate when you get gifts,don't take her to a restaurant where you can use your coupons.make them feel that they are remembered and treasured.Red roses,chocolate boxes,heart shaped pendants and balloons,Greeting cards,Gifts,fancy dinners,its all good.
On a personal note i was miles apart from my college sweetheart,my better half-my best half,my side'a the half is kin'a crap-,my wife and i am sure that next valentine's day we'll be together,and i bet I'm gonna sweep her off,heads over heels.
Belated valentine's day wishes..
Until next time, So long folks.
cheers,
-R-
How did February treat you? did you get lucky with cupid ?since we are still on February,i don't think its harm to talk about valentine's day.why a belated blog ? the truth is i was busy.So there are many views on valentine's day.Some claim that it's a waste of time others say its one beautiful day where full of unforgettable moments.This post is my personal view on val's day.You may not agree to it.Well, that's totally cool.
Why feb 14 ?
A catholic lived before 1969 would definitely know that its the feast of st.Valentine,then it was taken out of the catholic calender.When we need to get into its roots nothing is certain about the valentine's day.a lot of ink has been already spilled on this issue,but anyways I'll go ahead, for the first timers it may be informative.
The 101 is "The Golden Legend" or "Legenda aurea" as they call in latin,its a collection of records about the saints.In a nut shell,St Valentine was persecuted for being a Christian by Roman Emperor Claudius II . Claudius asked to get him to convert to Roman paganism in order to save his life. Valentine refused and tried to convert Claudius to Christianity instead. Because of this, he was executed. Before his execution, he is reported to have performed a miracle by healing the blind daughter of his jailer.
I quote from wiki "Since Legenda Aurea still provided no connections whatsoever with sentimental love, appropriate lore has been embroidered in modern times to portray Valentine as a priest who refused an unattested law attributed to Roman Emperor Claudius II, allegedly ordering that young men remain single. The Emperor supposedly did this to grow his army, believing that married men did not make for good soldiers. The priest Valentine, however, secretly performed marriage ceremonies for young men. When Claudius found out about this, he had Valentine arrested and thrown in jail.
There is an additional modern embellishment to The Golden Legend, provided by American Greetings to History.com, and widely repeated despite having no historical basis whatsoever. On the evening before Valentine was to be executed, he would have written the first "valentine" card himself, addressed to a young girl variously identified as his beloved, as the jailer's daughter whom he had befriended and healed, or both. It was a note that read 'From your Valentine.' "
So its just a folk-lore and there's no proof of having a romantic love lining to this story.a friend of mine said since he helped the young men to get married with their loved ones, it has got sentimental love values.when i heard this story first i thought St.valentine was taking revenge on the emperor by doing this,then we should change the sense and start taking revenge on our exes on this day.Somewhere around the 1400's this romantic flavor is added to this day, the french and the English were major contributors for this.No wonder eh ?
What's my stand ?
Either it's truth or a tale,there's a day set aside to show the love and care.I definitely agree.I read my friends saying that this day is commercialized and true lovers don't need a special day,i don't agree.In fact if you are a true lover you definitely need a special day, show her.Don't calculate when you get gifts,don't take her to a restaurant where you can use your coupons.make them feel that they are remembered and treasured.Red roses,chocolate boxes,heart shaped pendants and balloons,Greeting cards,Gifts,fancy dinners,its all good.
On a personal note i was miles apart from my college sweetheart,my better half-my best half,my side'a the half is kin'a crap-,my wife and i am sure that next valentine's day we'll be together,and i bet I'm gonna sweep her off,heads over heels.
Belated valentine's day wishes..
Until next time, So long folks.
cheers,
-R-
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Jan 31
Hi...
Ever had a thought, that Jan 31st is the last day of the first month, it flashed into my head today.I don't find a better day to recollect the past month and plan ahead for the next. January, Its no ordinary month.We had a awesome kick start on the new years day.Most of us would have taken up some resolutions, i personally, am a person who have failed a lot in my life,so this year i thought i should set up some realistic goals,so that i may not let guilt mock at me when i eventually fail.Having done that now i feel less motivated,coz i set the bar too low.so i think its a right time for me to revise the plans and to cut short my cozy zone.friends, if you have failed in keeping up ur resolutions, that's totally ok.Go ahead and Ctrl+Alt+Del.
Most of the things that i have learned in my life are extramural,i believe that ultimate goal of education is understanding.so, look outside the walls.Guys working in IT,all those who are studying,basically all of you,who are running this vicious cycle of life.get inspired quite often, take a break, read worthy books,spent time with friends and live the life,don't just participate in it.
I am no exception,i am like a Guinea pig in a lab,i don't have a choice,but to run the wheel all day long, but i choose to enjoy it.i am a guinea pig with my head phones on.
February is on the next page.say and show your love on valentine's day.Though there are arguments that love is commercialized on this day(for which i totally agree), still its an awesome day to say you care.I love the fact that the month squeezed in between two long months,its gonna be quick, so gear up and get going. God be with u guys.
"Before they call I will answer;while they are yet speaking I will hear." - The Bible
until next time, so long folks.
Cheers,
-R-
Ever had a thought, that Jan 31st is the last day of the first month, it flashed into my head today.I don't find a better day to recollect the past month and plan ahead for the next. January, Its no ordinary month.We had a awesome kick start on the new years day.Most of us would have taken up some resolutions, i personally, am a person who have failed a lot in my life,so this year i thought i should set up some realistic goals,so that i may not let guilt mock at me when i eventually fail.Having done that now i feel less motivated,coz i set the bar too low.so i think its a right time for me to revise the plans and to cut short my cozy zone.friends, if you have failed in keeping up ur resolutions, that's totally ok.Go ahead and Ctrl+Alt+Del.
Most of the things that i have learned in my life are extramural,i believe that ultimate goal of education is understanding.so, look outside the walls.Guys working in IT,all those who are studying,basically all of you,who are running this vicious cycle of life.get inspired quite often, take a break, read worthy books,spent time with friends and live the life,don't just participate in it.
I am no exception,i am like a Guinea pig in a lab,i don't have a choice,but to run the wheel all day long, but i choose to enjoy it.i am a guinea pig with my head phones on.
February is on the next page.say and show your love on valentine's day.Though there are arguments that love is commercialized on this day(for which i totally agree), still its an awesome day to say you care.I love the fact that the month squeezed in between two long months,its gonna be quick, so gear up and get going. God be with u guys.
"Before they call I will answer;while they are yet speaking I will hear." - The Bible
until next time, so long folks.
Cheers,
-R-
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